Starting to See the Light
Who knew birthdays could be this hard? I never thought it would happen to me, but I must confess, that I found myself in a dark space after celebrating my birthday this October. A lot of it stemmed from dealing with the realization another year has come and gone and I’m still single, wanting a baby, with no prospects. (The never ending story when it comes to women in their 30’s.) Couple that with a looming work project which had me working day, nights and weekends to meet the deadline – my mind, body and spirit took a huge hit this fall.
In true Sassy Self fashion however, I realized I was on a downward spiral and started fighting it from taking me down by turning to friends and most recently taking part of the (Deepak) Chopra Center 21-Day Meditation Challenge™, which I found out about while watching Oprah on OWN. Now that I’m in the last three weeks of my never ending work project, I hope to share more about what the Meditation Challenge has brought to my life, but for now, I just want to share a small portion of what I’ve started to see.
It all starts with Awareness, which is something I’ve already been trying to work on when dealing with hunger and eating, but it’s about being aware of everything around you at all times, which requires you to sit quietly with yourself (meditate) to get to know YOU. It’s a definite process, but one that I think I’m getting to a space where I can allow myself to sit quietly and get to know ME. I am really only in the beginning stages of this wonderful journey, but I have already begun to “let go” of previous limiting notions and have started to see amazing changes happen before my eyes, not only to me, but to others who I interact with. It’s pretty mind blowing, but definitely leads me to want to learn and explore more. 😉
This weekend was my first attempt at getting back in tune with myself and nature by allowing myself a weekend getaway (because of my work project, I haven’t had a true vacation since April this year). It totally opened me up to starting to see the light – it was amazing! It was a trip that took me only 1 1/2 hours away from my home, but it felt like I was in a land far, far away.
My best friend and I rented a cabin in the Texas Hill Country, bbq’d and took day trips to cute neighboring towns and explored our surroundings (hope you enjoy some of my weekend pics 😉 ).
It was amazing and just what the doctor ordered. I hope more similar journeys are in my future and as long as I allow myself to sit quietly with my true self and my true thoughts, I think I can make that a reality. Fingers crossed. 🙂
Have you been through a rough patch and muscled your way through? Do you have any suggestions on how to go from being the ultimate multi-tasker to being able to sit quietly with yourself?